Turmoil- not

Finally had my Porcupine presented today!(: I don't know why all of them kept laughing throughout my 50s movie. That includes the lecturer as well! I was like why are you guys laughing? It's not meant to be funny lehh.. I wonder how much they get from it. Anyways, good thing the lecturer didn't complained about anything.
Morning rush! I overslept on the bus and alighted two stop away from the actual one. Was rushing like mad in order not to be too late for my porcupine submission;/ I'm a sleepyhead.
After lesson, we went Mustafa to get salo's and aditi's visa done for Kukup. Had my very first North Indian/Chi Indian cusine. I quite like the cheese naan(something like rotiprata) with their kind of gravy, not curry. They use a lot of Indian spices in almost all of their dishes. I like eating them just that I doubt I will be eating it in a regular basis.

Mom has been rather agitated over the phone these few days. Her worries and helplessness for her mother's current and future state. Cause of her decreasing capabilities of taking care of herself when she's alone. Not that over there, they're not doing anything for her just that there's still something lacking that makes mom uneasy. Perhaps, it's that genuine erm, I don't know. We have no stand, I think. Since we're not there and can't contribute much. Ah, I don't think I dare to go back.

And so, I think I will give up that opportunity given to me.
Two things, finance and safety.
I don't know hows exactly my family's doing but 3-5k is not a small sum. Moreover, the folks just can't part with me for 2 wks at some far foreign places. HEHE I'm momma's baby. OPPS.
Nevermind. If by any way that giving up on this can help them finance in finding a helper to aid her, I really don't mind. I still have so much chances, I think.

Bye Louve, for now.

This is the third time already. What's with 4H'06?
I dont know what to say, it's very sad.
The thought of attending it is not very pleasant. It's not about facing just this particular one, yet the two other ones as well.
How's its like to sit there, sing and to think back and try to comprehend fully the lost.

and
I lost my first self-made silver ring!
I have no idea how it slipped out of my finger!
there goes my one credit

To the extreme, to find the balance

Did I ever told ya that I was struck by the lightning 7 times?

Tried to refrain my laughter every time this question is prompted. HAHA. I think he's a blessed person to survive and to be reminded to give thanks for 7 times. Sftey, lend it to me please when you got it cause I would like to watch it again too. Hehe. Like I'd said, initially I thought it wasn't exactly a bad thing to born the other way round in the cycle of life. Taste the bitter then the sweet. But I guess I was wrong cause it's worst to not be able to witness and grow old together with the people you love. Quote from sftey's blog, "You never know what's comin' for ya". Just take what life had offer, no point turning back the time... But I do have many regrets. Was looking through my past and chance upon last year's Feb 2-i find the more i go in dept on art, i may drift away from people with different faculty. no common topics scary. I was right..... phwoar T.T. Renewing thoughts daily is really essential. The thought of forsaking this world can just come so strong. When I realised that the chase over it is never ending and never satisfying.

Sometimes I feel like a lit up candle in a storm when people declared that they are Christians yet believe in the monkey evolution. Another said that doing abstract painting is like a religion btw he and God, which I obviously dont know how he perceive it. Lastly, another said Mary is a disgrace and come telling that the Bible is not true. Renewal of thoughts daily is really essential. Indeed!.
To peeps having their assessment soon, FUEL!
I miss chatting randomly and endlessly to ppl online, esp Mr Zee lah. Switching to PC to challenge each other reversi and checkers. How, someone have his own family already. Sad~ haha, doubt he'll see this :p
eyebags, ewww

breath right

Field trip to Kukup on March 5-8 is not looking appealing to me anymore after googling about it.
They mentioned on the net that there will be a fishy smell. :/
We'll be living at the village, which means we'll be sleeping above mud filled with mud skippers. :/
Will there be a massacre by the mozzies and insects? :/

To make things better,......
- I shall look forward to a different feel and experience away from the city life.
- Many many Seafood (hopefully there's nice prawns cause I dont eat crab)
- Nice views to paint!

hmm, what else?
I'm such a pain.

phew

A little hopeful, fearful and uncertain when I clicked the word END.
Muttered another prayer in my heart and awaited for the outcome.
Yet again after doubting myself so much the whole time, He proved to me that I can do it.
Grateful for such a sweetie sister who'd sent me to such an inaccessible location.
Though it'll be better if there weren't any misunderstandings.
THANKYOU!
To think that the other upcoming challenge is in MARCH, I faint.
I should quit belittling myself. Although I am really not that bright and with so many flaws. So what if how people view and think. What's important is the one above right. That's it.

To Adel: It's okay if you think that you had contradicted yourself with the things you say and do. Who don't? At least you realised it now. You're wonderful in our eyes, same to God's. We shall all learn to be self-loving man. HAHA GET WELL SOON babe, for both aspect(:

I didnt get to eat with bekah today... Next week okay, same time, same day, same place. Thanks for the card on sunday!
-immensely touched- insert big grins

School is hmm, quite lax. I'll be in the library at least 3 days a week. Not just redoing my notes, more on my personal readings. The more I read, the more intimidated I am. I think they're too much for my limited brain... CMI.
I'll still continue, better than just giving up and not read anymore.

Actually, I'm quite content with what I have right now. Nothing more or less is needed. Life-wise, yes. Knowledge-wise, not.
Recapping on last week:
SAT
-long awaited steamboat session cum cny house visiting with the 1kgirls
-Chinatown food 'expedition'we chanced upon some eatery place(i dont really know the name, but I got the namecard) where they got nice chewy ramens, xiaolongbao, red bean pan-fried thing and pan-fried dumplings. We find them really nice not because we're so hungry or whatsoever cause I was still 3/4 full from the steamboat earlier on. No, I didnt eat a whole bowl of ramen, I just shared with them the sides and tried a few strands of ramen. I'm no cow. The price is so affordable. So there, go try... Call me along too cause I wanna go back to have that whole bowl of ramen. Hohoho check out the pics from FB

SUN
-played Table-Tennis(oh,finally) at Kai's house ( cariissa! when are you going to do that as well?), failed to learn tennis. (the court itself is intimidating already) sad.
-laoyusheng and dinner at CaiXialaoshi's house

2nd mth of '09

and i kinda broke 1 of my new year resolutions today... yea, like kel had said, don't change bag.
nevermind.
-blabberings and rantings- (dont bother reading- now i put it in the front)
I'm waiting for my clay porcupine to dry up so shall blog for a short while. Yes, I've decided to do something about it for digimedia. heh Hope it won't turn up too abstract and that ppl/lect. would get my idea.
I'm bery bery thankful for my loving family, they went all the way to Geylang to get Durians for me. I need durians as a representation of that sharp potentially hurtful characteristic of a Porcup. Now the 3 of them are eating durians. Hehe, so funny. I dont like durians. eww, anyway, they do enjoy eating it soo.... just like during O's when my batik's topic was crabs. Mum loves crabs! I dont like. It make my throat itch. crapping now.......
Anyways, caught inkheart just now. Nice movie! hahaha Bride wars with adel and sftey on fri was erm, kinda dry. Nevertheless, I enjoyed it. Chit-chats was nice on bus:) More to come aye. Lack of sleep annoys me! A full 8 hours or more will be good. ;( I think I'm pretty much living in my own secluded world. Like it was commented before. Not good, I dont like.
Restart button. Okay, I need to go back to my cave and start 'emoing' before I unleash a new, better me:)


That durian smell!